Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The man in my life:)
The pride of his deep brown eyes,
His wrinkled smile,
You taught me the number’s I know,
And how I used to get it all wrong.
I remember the story you used to tell me
To put me to sleep,
I remember every night you spent,
Nursing me when I got sick.
I remember that every day you spent,
Making sure we were okay,
You were standing outside and watching
Me write that tough exam that made me a nervous wrek,
I have heard every silent prayer,
Your every loving word,
Your guidance , your love,
You are in my heart forever,
From the baby steps I took to the woman I am today,
You were there when I needed you,
Ever so silently, then why did we go apart,
We started livin in our silent worlds,
I missed you each day,
Then you are back again,
And here to share our little world with us again,
And I am glad you are back daddy,
words could never define what we share,
I owe a lot to you.
lot's of love
sangee,
Sunday, October 26, 2008
26 OCT 2008
Hi All,
Its not a rainy day in Bangalore , a perfectly beautiful sunny morning. I wake up listening to Yanni, then i do my usual yoga. Then i had my breakfast and tea in my lawn :).. A normal beautiful day..:)..
Here i am sitting and typing away to glory, don't even know what's going to be there the next moment.I am planning to run off to meet my friends in the evening .
Tomorrow is diwali and a beautiful day of course(As i get an extended weekend off:p). I am going to get to wear my new clothes also.:)
Everything is going fine for now.:).. I am looking forward to watch good old movie on TV.
I saw 3 movies this week, "A Wednesday(A must watch)","Flight plan","Troy". I love Brad Pitt:(... Then wat else..???:) I am bored to death till 4.. So i am just typing all the non sense i can because i don't know what else to do:)..
Ne ways A very very very HAPPY DIWALI to who ever is reading.. Have a lovely year ahead.. And please wish me too..:):):)
Lotsa love n wishes,
sangee
Its not a rainy day in Bangalore , a perfectly beautiful sunny morning. I wake up listening to Yanni, then i do my usual yoga. Then i had my breakfast and tea in my lawn :).. A normal beautiful day..:)..
Here i am sitting and typing away to glory, don't even know what's going to be there the next moment.I am planning to run off to meet my friends in the evening .
Tomorrow is diwali and a beautiful day of course(As i get an extended weekend off:p). I am going to get to wear my new clothes also.:)
Everything is going fine for now.:).. I am looking forward to watch good old movie on TV.
I saw 3 movies this week, "A Wednesday(A must watch)","Flight plan","Troy". I love Brad Pitt:(... Then wat else..???:) I am bored to death till 4.. So i am just typing all the non sense i can because i don't know what else to do:)..
Ne ways A very very very HAPPY DIWALI to who ever is reading.. Have a lovely year ahead.. And please wish me too..:):):)
Lotsa love n wishes,
sangee
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
As on Oct 22nd
Hi,
I was just wondering what to do and thought why not pen down what I am thinking about.
I was the kind of person fighting and over analyzing every situation, now it seems like I am just happy for the present moment.
Ups and downs lows and highs everything is a part of life, and life never turns out the way we wish it would. We never get perfect things in life, and that’s the fact.
The more we try to drive away the devils in our head the more complex things get. One thing I should realize in the course of my life is that I will never be perfectly happy and even if I am ,that situation will change and life keeps changing.
If I have issues with someone else the problem is with me too, I have to learn and learn a lot more in life.There is no point in being so confused that’s life. I can only give in my best and hope hard that things turn out in my favour.
I have seen my share of failures and rejections and unhappiness in life, but then I realize it was all for my good. I have seen many trillion sunny days too and I am grateful for every moment of my life because it made me the person I am today and I am happy life turned out this way. The only area that I want to improve in is to get the courage to share my life with someone else. I am the kind of person who has always been scared of relationships because I was scared of getting hurt, but the sad part is I will be left all alone if I choose to go on this way. I have to find that strength in myself to probably give away a part of myself to someone probably that way I will be much happier and probably not so scared of everything, it will be the biggest fear overcome.
When we go through life we all know that we all have our fears and I was and am not a perfect person , but then what makes me happy about my life is that I am learning and no matter how much it scares the hell out of me I am learning and still learning.
My silly, stupid pride is my worst enemy and probably that’s my biggest fear in life , of getting humiliated, I would have gone much further if I could give up this “dumb”, “stupid”,”lousy” fear of mineJ.
When we choose not to do things because we are scared of getting hurt the more that thing follows us all over, and when you run after something it will never come to you.
Amazing enough I have been a very lucky person in life, may be with my initial failures which give me the strength to get up and fight again. I am a fighter may be a different kind of fighter but I have come so far because may be somewhere I have a lot of strength.
J take care,
Lots of love ,
Sangeetha
I was just wondering what to do and thought why not pen down what I am thinking about.
I was the kind of person fighting and over analyzing every situation, now it seems like I am just happy for the present moment.
Ups and downs lows and highs everything is a part of life, and life never turns out the way we wish it would. We never get perfect things in life, and that’s the fact.
The more we try to drive away the devils in our head the more complex things get. One thing I should realize in the course of my life is that I will never be perfectly happy and even if I am ,that situation will change and life keeps changing.
If I have issues with someone else the problem is with me too, I have to learn and learn a lot more in life.There is no point in being so confused that’s life. I can only give in my best and hope hard that things turn out in my favour.
I have seen my share of failures and rejections and unhappiness in life, but then I realize it was all for my good. I have seen many trillion sunny days too and I am grateful for every moment of my life because it made me the person I am today and I am happy life turned out this way. The only area that I want to improve in is to get the courage to share my life with someone else. I am the kind of person who has always been scared of relationships because I was scared of getting hurt, but the sad part is I will be left all alone if I choose to go on this way. I have to find that strength in myself to probably give away a part of myself to someone probably that way I will be much happier and probably not so scared of everything, it will be the biggest fear overcome.
When we go through life we all know that we all have our fears and I was and am not a perfect person , but then what makes me happy about my life is that I am learning and no matter how much it scares the hell out of me I am learning and still learning.
My silly, stupid pride is my worst enemy and probably that’s my biggest fear in life , of getting humiliated, I would have gone much further if I could give up this “dumb”, “stupid”,”lousy” fear of mineJ.
When we choose not to do things because we are scared of getting hurt the more that thing follows us all over, and when you run after something it will never come to you.
Amazing enough I have been a very lucky person in life, may be with my initial failures which give me the strength to get up and fight again. I am a fighter may be a different kind of fighter but I have come so far because may be somewhere I have a lot of strength.
J take care,
Lots of love ,
Sangeetha
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Timeless on a river bank
how long has it been?? its too long i say to myself..
It is a dream i told myself...There is a voice in my head that tells me.. don't live this way..
it was a beautiful evening.. it is beautiful all around, the sun's setting and there i am sitting all alone in a cottage.. probably thinking about how life passed me by, probably thinking about all those moments of joy and failure.. all is good.. life's a beautiful paradise... may be my soul is thousands of years old...its turning all dark and there is a beautiful garden in my yard.. a thousand trees surrounding me..
i start walking down a lonely path.. i realise i am not afraid this time, afraid of anything.. afraid of anyone hurting me or any one's opinion..
its misty and cold and there is an old tree i pass by...may be a hundred years old.. may be even it has seen a million things , of millions of people passing it by.. a thousand people with probably broken or beautiful lives... may be its watching me and wondering what i am doing in this forest ..
i am alone , and i have no one to share anything with..its a magical place.. i am attached to nothing and i am just a bird probably with space needed to fly i am thinking.. there is no fear.. there is no hatred.. all is only pure and peaceful...
i wander in the darkness with no sign of light , i am wondering how God could create so much beauty, with everything so diverse, everything so unique.... whatever he did, no one could ever do a better job. He made thing just beautiful.. The smell of fresh soil when it rains was all that was surrounding me...
As i am walking down that narrow path, there is a sudden shimmer of light gaping down a hole..
staring at my face, like it was living .. It looked like it was welcoming me with warm open arms...
i walk towards that light wondering where the paths leading me to..I see a beautiful pond with all shimmers of gold and silver.. there is sunlight falling on it, and sparkle just dazzles me, my still heart skips a beat..
I sit down there and i watch, and wait. Like i was waiting for something.. Something that i have been waiting for all my life now.. I wait and i don't move..I know that i have come home to something, and probably found something that i will remember till i take my last breath, and there he was , sitting down the same pond as me, probably waiting for someone to arrive just like me..
He sat beside and told me beautiful things about life, and what my purpose here was, and i was wondering in my dreams whether it could really be true, that all the things i don't understand are what will be explained here. Here in this silence, everything seemed real. There is no difference between life and death. The both are the same things..Life is all action and the reaction to life itself is death..
As he sat down and explained life to me, i for a moment wasn't trying to understand and analyse everything. For a moment may be not for long i didn't want to be anywhere else but here.
But then the dream didn't last. I woke to realise that life's the same way it was. May be i will find true love and may be i wont, but then the journey of life itself is so beautiful that i have nothing else to understand and analyse so much, probably take things to my stride and live each day like it was my last..
life is amazing that's true.. It is like we have a mould of clay, we have all these experiences , we are bent and twisted , may be we are shapeless in the beginning, but then in the end we turn out right, in our own astonishing ways.
I wish i could go back to that dream and just walk down that road again, or probably that path is set for me in my life itself.
C u all,
lots of love,
sangeetha
It is a dream i told myself...There is a voice in my head that tells me.. don't live this way..
it was a beautiful evening.. it is beautiful all around, the sun's setting and there i am sitting all alone in a cottage.. probably thinking about how life passed me by, probably thinking about all those moments of joy and failure.. all is good.. life's a beautiful paradise... may be my soul is thousands of years old...its turning all dark and there is a beautiful garden in my yard.. a thousand trees surrounding me..
i start walking down a lonely path.. i realise i am not afraid this time, afraid of anything.. afraid of anyone hurting me or any one's opinion..
its misty and cold and there is an old tree i pass by...may be a hundred years old.. may be even it has seen a million things , of millions of people passing it by.. a thousand people with probably broken or beautiful lives... may be its watching me and wondering what i am doing in this forest ..
i am alone , and i have no one to share anything with..its a magical place.. i am attached to nothing and i am just a bird probably with space needed to fly i am thinking.. there is no fear.. there is no hatred.. all is only pure and peaceful...
i wander in the darkness with no sign of light , i am wondering how God could create so much beauty, with everything so diverse, everything so unique.... whatever he did, no one could ever do a better job. He made thing just beautiful.. The smell of fresh soil when it rains was all that was surrounding me...
As i am walking down that narrow path, there is a sudden shimmer of light gaping down a hole..
staring at my face, like it was living .. It looked like it was welcoming me with warm open arms...
i walk towards that light wondering where the paths leading me to..I see a beautiful pond with all shimmers of gold and silver.. there is sunlight falling on it, and sparkle just dazzles me, my still heart skips a beat..
I sit down there and i watch, and wait. Like i was waiting for something.. Something that i have been waiting for all my life now.. I wait and i don't move..I know that i have come home to something, and probably found something that i will remember till i take my last breath, and there he was , sitting down the same pond as me, probably waiting for someone to arrive just like me..
He sat beside and told me beautiful things about life, and what my purpose here was, and i was wondering in my dreams whether it could really be true, that all the things i don't understand are what will be explained here. Here in this silence, everything seemed real. There is no difference between life and death. The both are the same things..Life is all action and the reaction to life itself is death..
As he sat down and explained life to me, i for a moment wasn't trying to understand and analyse everything. For a moment may be not for long i didn't want to be anywhere else but here.
But then the dream didn't last. I woke to realise that life's the same way it was. May be i will find true love and may be i wont, but then the journey of life itself is so beautiful that i have nothing else to understand and analyse so much, probably take things to my stride and live each day like it was my last..
life is amazing that's true.. It is like we have a mould of clay, we have all these experiences , we are bent and twisted , may be we are shapeless in the beginning, but then in the end we turn out right, in our own astonishing ways.
I wish i could go back to that dream and just walk down that road again, or probably that path is set for me in my life itself.
C u all,
lots of love,
sangeetha
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Poem:D
the beautiful dreams around me i built,
fragile and deep,
no one can ever come in here,
for as long as i live,
for the things i see no one can,
for the way i feel no one can,
the sweet scent of flowers in the garden of life,
the silent tears that everyone cries,
the depth of pain and pleasure,
the moment we realise that loneliness in the biggest fear we have,
the day we realise that nothing can be bigger than our own inhibitions about life,
we are set free and we break the chains that hold us back..
listen to the heart,
it has a million secrets,
listen to the soul,
it will set you free...
and that's what i want to be,
to be set free...
Sangeetha
Saturday, September 20, 2008
hi ya!! SEPTEMBER 20th
hi all,
its been a loong week.. and a very boring week too... life just so monotonous.. i do the same thing everyday.. i was reading this amazing book "Brida"... Now that keeps me thinking the whole day.. " soulmate" these are things i stopped thinking about and probably dont believe exist.:D
but honestly.. the book is amazing.. makes me want to think again.. well nowadays.. i am running so much.. it seems like i am running away from myself..
feel so disconnected from what i really am.. but then this is better than thinking endlessly about things that dont really exist probably:D..
hmm i planning on a lotta things right now.. and some how nothing is fitting in. have to give some certifications.. prolly find a better job.. or start my higher studies.. do an mba probably.. well lets see what lifes got for me..:D>. i am sooo confused about so many things and yet seemed have to have made it till here..:D.. so lets see whats there in the next bend:D
cya all love ya all,
peace,
sangeetha
its been a loong week.. and a very boring week too... life just so monotonous.. i do the same thing everyday.. i was reading this amazing book "Brida"... Now that keeps me thinking the whole day.. " soulmate" these are things i stopped thinking about and probably dont believe exist.:D
but honestly.. the book is amazing.. makes me want to think again.. well nowadays.. i am running so much.. it seems like i am running away from myself..
feel so disconnected from what i really am.. but then this is better than thinking endlessly about things that dont really exist probably:D..
hmm i planning on a lotta things right now.. and some how nothing is fitting in. have to give some certifications.. prolly find a better job.. or start my higher studies.. do an mba probably.. well lets see what lifes got for me..:D>. i am sooo confused about so many things and yet seemed have to have made it till here..:D.. so lets see whats there in the next bend:D
cya all love ya all,
peace,
sangeetha
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