Poem:D

the beautiful dreams around me i built,

fragile and deep,

no one can ever come in here,

for as long as i live,

for the things i see no one can,

for the way i feel no one can,

the sweet scent of flowers in the garden of life,

the silent tears that everyone cries,

the depth of pain and pleasure,

the moment we realise that loneliness in the biggest fear we have,

the day we realise that nothing can be bigger than our own inhibitions about life,

we are set free and we break the chains that hold us back..

listen to the heart,

it has a million secrets,

listen to the soul,

it will set you free...

and that's what i want to be,

to be set free...

Sangeetha

hi ya!! SEPTEMBER 20th

hi all,
its been a loong week.. and a very boring week too... life just so monotonous.. i do the same thing everyday.. i was reading this amazing book "Brida"... Now that keeps me thinking the whole day.. " soulmate" these are things i stopped thinking about and probably dont believe exist.:D
but honestly.. the book is amazing.. makes me want to think again.. well nowadays.. i am running so much.. it seems like i am running away from myself..
feel so disconnected from what i really am.. but then this is better than thinking endlessly about things that dont really exist probably:D..
hmm i planning on a lotta things right now.. and some how nothing is fitting in. have to give some certifications.. prolly find a better job.. or start my higher studies.. do an mba probably.. well lets see what lifes got for me..:D>. i am sooo confused about so many things and yet seemed have to have made it till here..:D.. so lets see whats there in the next bend:D

cya all love ya all,
peace,
sangeetha

hi ya july 29..

days go by and i am wondering whether i am really that person who i think i am. whether i am just trying very hard to be something else. there is a fine line of diffrentiation you know from the person you are and whom you really want to be..
We may put up a thousand masks, a thousand fake smiles, i just cant believe i am the person i have become.. i couldnt hurt anyone.. i never have.. how did this happen...??? it was never in my control i am so sick and tired of the guilt. i feel like some situtations in life cant be controlled and the more i try to hang on, on the end of that rope.. it just kills me.. i am so tired of being sorry.. i have made many mistakes but wy do i judge someone so cruelly when i am not perfect myself?/ why do i say things i dont mean..?? why does all this break my heart so much..:(..we have plans ... we think life will go this way and that way. our goals our beliefs.. and all of a sudden, you are thrown in the corner to tell you like it was a joke on you , that nothing goes our way in life. the more you think and dream about a perfect life, and imagine that tomorrow will be better than today, its a big lie. my perfect life is just today. i rather live in this moment than in any other, i cant be more happier than today.. i will reamin sad even tomorrow even if i got the best things in life, because thats the way i may be. i have hurt and i have been hurt, its just that some things are not meant to be, they are all just expereinces for something bigger , it gives you an insight into your future mistakes.i am human after all and its in me to make mistakes, but then not to that extent that i never learn from them, but somewhow i neever seem to get the lesson right..:p...may be i am notperfect but i do try really hard everyday.. i bet on my life that , that begger on the street is having a million times worser problems, and i am just self pitying way too much.
lifes extremely strange.. and the more i analyse and try to take control of it, it just spirals away out of my control. i cant live a life according to me, things change , circumstances change, the same person whom you waited to talk to everyday might be the one person you never want to talk to again.. but thats the beauty of life. nothing remains constant because if it did, we would all lose our will to live, and there would be nothing new to learn.:)
why i am i writing this? because i am pretty disgusted right now, i am sad basically. so here i am writing here again..:Dcheers!!love and lots of love,sangeetha

poem..:D

pages of time flipping by..i am wondering whats there in the end of that bend..a thousand mistakes ,a thousand smiles..i tried to be perfect,i tried to be somebody else,i tried so hard..but i realise..accepting myself is the best way to live..

i walked down that dark stormy forest,and now i am sitting on the edge of that hill,with the cool wind passing me by,i hear the sound of the most beautiful music...i know there are silent whispers in the sky..

the storm in my mind has finally ended..i have to forgive myself before i forgive others..i just have to live and accept life..lifes a full circle we return to where we started...life is beautiful and i realise nothing is perfect we mend with time...
---Sangeetha Mani

june 27 2008

hi ya,
wassup there??? :D...here i am again talking things that dunt matter to ne1.. updates..:p.. i started learning violin again.. i am so super happy about that.. update 2.. started yoga again...i am so happy nowadays.. its getting wierd now...:D
now wat the hell.. neways.. there one thing in my life thats the best thing about my lfie right now... it makes me so very happy that i cant start explaining... just the presence of those few people arnd me makes me super happy.. agggain..:p...those lil kids.. they make my weekend.. they are just super.. update 4.. we are moving to jaynagar..yipee.. all my friends are there...
i will miss this house.. n all those days i made growing up so tough here..:p..
well neways.. so many updates.. and so many things happeneing.. my lifes like changing real fast...
i plus i learnt a lot more... i am less of a tension party now.. i am able to knock off people bothering me.. i am able to speak up!!:D..i am glad..
hmmm.. then wat else?? there is nothing much here neways...

gud day ppls..:D

hii yaaaa:p

hi all,
hows everything there???? loong time eh?? real looong time.. c i am bak in bangalore.. went thru my ups n downs n learnt a hell lot.. lifes kind of a breeze right now.. thats good.. when all the madness finally settles.. and when u r finally not trying to figure out the madness in ur head..
lifes like that.... i am working and i am ahppy and all that.. but suddenly i am not thinking too much about life.. i am at that point u can say where i just want to go with the flow.. just no thinking and i have changed.. got a new haircut..:p...
no i am not talking about all that.. just that i am wondering now sitting here in the night(crazy me???).. where the hell is this journey going?? none of the pieces fit in.. its like a big puzzle u know.. i keep wondering and wondering.. n nothing makes sense.. but i am just not trying to figure out..:D..
i guess i am just confusing u???:D
well.. getting to the point... we all have our theories and notions our perceptions and things in our head.. a million thoughts hitting our head in a day.. but god knows where we are goin.. we areally dont know.. its better to just go with the flow.. and just take it easy... we cant control our lives all the time.. otherwise we all would have things we want.. but lifes not like that.. its probably a little complex.. but the more we think about it... we get lost...
well neways.. i dont know where my life going to.. but whatever ..i am strong enough to face the strom or whatever comes ahead.. because there is so much to learn..:)
keep smiling..
tata,
gnite...

mysore->bangalore->mysore..:)

hello..loong time..lifes changed so much in 2 months..god i have changed so much..i feel this sense of freedon and dis thing that i never felt b4..being alone can b fun..i am learning so much abt life.. all of a sudden i have been thrown out of my comfort zone..but its fun..as i am doing so many things i never evn dared to do..i earn my own living..spend it my way..n do watever i feel like..

but ya there r times wen i weep like mad..wen i miss my amma appa n snehlu..but then nothing can b perfect rite..lifes like that rite...neways catch ya all lata...